Courage to move forward

Well hello, again. So much has occurred over the past couple of years. However, cycling was not one of my occurrences. When I originally thought of starting blogging it was more of a means of journalling. I had absolutely no idea that the last title post would have such significance in my life. Yet I knew a change of course had to be established in order for me to survive the bombardment of psychiatric alphabet soup of diagnoses. In addition, the name of the blog, unknowingly, spoke of the feelings of my ADHD inattention.

In the past few months I've been gorging on almost any information I could use to help change how I cope with having a different brainstyle, working with my strengths instead of against them. There is something very different with how I learn and produce, which is why all of my places of employment seemed so rigid. Plus I've always known that I just did the work for the pay never for the joy I'd hoped to find. As I approach my one-year anniversary of attending weekly DBT training I wonder what the next steps will entail. After searching Psychcentral there are six things I should have acquired from the four modules. One that has helped me greatly is support to help change and decrease unhealthy response behaviors, changing my perception from sad/angry to glad. Realizing that everything in the world is neutral it's our perception that we label/judge items good or bad, which is a judgemental stance.

I've decided to commit until the end or beginning of 2010 or 2011. However, staying too long may set my triggers for ADHD. Let's see what the next few months bring.